mood: not too happy


. i wont get home till probaly 7 and i really wanna do something with jake tonite. the only thing we can do is probaly come over my house which will b extremely gay like it usually is. but watever. i dont no if we can even do anything, ive been trying to get ahold of him all day. i really dont wanna call cuz if hes not online then hes probaly busy or out or doing something more important then worrying about wat we wanna do. then hell get pissed at me since we cant do anything and its not me fauly its his so watever i tryed. its hard staying online waiting for him to get on when over here they only have 1 phone line and ppl are calling this house non stop. i dunno i just wanna leave this weekend has sucked while my parents enjoyed themselves and i just hated it...NO FUN atleast next weekend is homecoming and i can have fun and spend all weekend with jake...hopefully! yay. i have a bunch of homework to do still but i didnt bring it with me which sucks. oh well we have off tomorrow thank god of yon kippor or some weird holiday so its all gravy baby! and mayb my studs for my dress came in and i can start studing it that would rock too. i just wannna go home. please save me from the maddness. ahhhhhhhh

mood: bored

well on thursday me and jake stayed after school to go to a football game. jv, which sucked cuz we lost and shit but who cares at least i got to b with jake. well school ends at 2:15, the game didnt start till 3:30 so we just stayed after school, we went over to the middle school and talked to some teachers and harassed them and shit it was fun. then we walked up to highs and bought a bunch of shit till we got kicked out..that bastard lady! errr bitch. uh it was sooooo freezing outside too so, when we went back to the high school the game had already started and me and jaked watched the hole thing. since he was "suppost" to play football this year and everything, well his parents wanted him to but he didnt really wanna cuz he hates football but watever. so we stay on the freezing ground and watched the guy run after a ball in tight pants and gettin hurt.no fun, we just talked thehole time. then we uh finaly called our parents to come pick us up like 10 hours later. that sure was a hell of a time. then i went to dance for nothing, tryed on my kick ass solo costume and went to walmart. didnt get to bed till 12 but i didnt have school the next day since i was going to try out for STARSEARCH. like i said b4. okay well we got at the studio on friday morning around 9 and we practiced for a while. we did are hair before we left and then took our 1 ina  half drive to dc. we did all of are dances and i think they liked them alot, espeically allie and nicks partnering duet. but its okay id rather see them on star search then me. it was cool but i was pissed that i had to miss school.errr. so uh that was that. last nite after i got home i went over jakes house and watched him try to chug a gallon of milk in a hour. his bro told him the other day that its impossible to drink a gallon of milk in 1 hour and jake took the dare. so he did it while i was over, drank about half a gallon in 30 min, felt soooooo sick like he was gonna puke everywhere and gave up. that pussy. he didnt feel good and id idnt feel bad for him cuz that was his fault. he went upstairs, puked about 5 times till he finally felt better. ha it was funny. and extremely dirty i was pissed that he puked yucky. uh that was fun, then we just hung out the rest of the nite. today i had to go to dance, my parents and mr ray and ms elizabeth arre rite now in atlantic city gamblin. they leave me here over my gay aunts house and its been sooo gay. after dance she picked me up, we went to 2 librarys to find a book for my cousin. went to wendys for a hour. went to super walmart and just got back.jesus long day. and my lil cuz hunter is being soooo annoying. my cousin bob whos cool and my age is over his gfs house all fucking dayl leaving me al alone. errr torrture. now later i think im gonna have to watch gay kangaroo jack with him cuz he rentedit while he was at the library, i mean hey its better then gay dragonballz. ugh. okay thats enough. from re-reading wat just happened today i think i mite go shoot myself.

NO FUCKING SCHOOL TOMORROW AGAIN!!!!!!!

 jake called and asked me if i wanted to do anything. actually he begged me to do something. he was home alone, in his no electric house STILL. he freakin still doesnt have electricity. i feel so bad for him. hes only takin 1 shower in the past 4 days he hasnt had electric. so i was like u definatly have to come over it must suck over there without any power. so he came over, met my kick ass g-parents which loved him and we played tony hawk for alil. uh after that, i convinced my mom to take us to the mall cuz i really didnt wanna stay in the house all day.  so uh we went down to the shitty mall and walked around for about an hour lookin for some earrings and listened to cds in the cd store for a while. just to let ya no, our shitty mall had no stores that sell any gauging earrings besides spencers and there selection sucked balls so that was all, screw that idea, oh and pacsun but they didnt have anything special there so it was no fun!! then we went over to red lobster where we ate, lunch/dinner i would say. no one was hungry but Nanny wanted to go before 4 so we could get the lunch menu since its cheaper. so we did and we all ate and it was yummy but watever. so we go home and uh me and jake just hung out for a while, nanny wanted to teach jake how to play dominos so we freaking did that which was boring and extremely gay but jake liked its cuz hes real weird. then we watched theres something about mary and uh just hung out for a while. later around 9 we found out that schools were closed and uh jake stayed until 10 and we just had a awesome day again. i no he was hating it and was probaly sick of me. i was with him 3 outta the 4 days we were off. he was saying how he loves being with me, he was pissed that we didnt end up doing anything last nite and since we didnt he really missed me, that hes seen me more in the past 3 weeks then EVER haha which is a for sure true fact, and all he was saying was he loved me. every second he would say he loved me...EVERY FUCKING SEC!!! it was so cute, he would like go i love u i love u i love u and im like i no u do and u are the best guy in the world and i love u 2 baby ur so great. im so glad to have such a kick ass guy that really loves me. its such an awesome feeling. i mean this is EXACTLY wat he freakin said to me today. we were sitting on my bed just hugging, and very randomly he said "i cant wait till im 18" im like "why?!?!" and hes like "so i can move in with u, i just wanna spend every minute with u i love it i i was going crazy last nite just becuz i wasnt with u, and when im not with u, it sucks cuz it wants me to see u even more bad" im like thats so cute jake i hope we really do stay together for awhile, it would b major crazy but i feel soooo confortable with him and he really seems like the only guy out there for me, i love my guy sooooooo much hes the best!!!!!!!!!!!!

 I LOVE HIM!!!!! ahhhhh