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Sunday, October 26, 2003
hey everyone my best friend braids her cooch hair!!!
mood: boredddddddd.
well this weekend has been a fun one let me tell u...yesterday, when i got to dance, i found out during ballet from nick that we had a freakin hour in a half break afterwards until jazz which started at 2-3:30. i was pissed, even tho it was only 30 min over wat it usually is i hate how no one tells me shit it pisses me off...so we have shannon for some reason and after that i went home...
jake calls and asks if i want to go over his house cuz hes having some halloween festivites and shit and like everyone was there. so i said sure, even tho i wanted him to come over here but it was way better over there. well i get there and, jakes sis and justin, justins sis, jakes counsin, his bro and gf, and justins mom were all over there for the halloween shit. earlier that day they went "pumpkin hunting" and stuff but i couldnt come becuz of gay dance. so me jake and justin hung out upstairs and watched some movie. jakes mom would bust into his room checkin on us every second finding excuses to check on us. jake was gettin so pissed off he couldnt stand it anymore, he told his mom that too. that she was just coming up stairs and finding excuses to check on him and hes like ITS ONLY WHEN COURTNEY IS OVER UR ALWAYS GAY AND SPAZZING haha it was great, hes like talking like i do to my mom. but watever, justin left us and we just hung out while he played lacrosse outside. jake and justins sis's were annoying as all hell but watever. later after the movie we attempted to play cards but never finished cuz we started fighting. he kept hitting me and punching me and i did the same back. omg it was so funny, i couldnt breathe i kept hittin him as hard as i could and shit jesus it was fun. he was gettin mad cuz i dont think he thinks i can hurt him but once in a great while i can, sooooooo he freakin grabbed justins cupcake and shoved it in my face, I WAS SO PISSED!!!!!!!! i was gonna kill him so bad omg. jesus chrsit i was mad i started sceaming, jake was like pissing himself laughing histerically on the bed while i was like furious and his mom comes in and starts yelling at him. ahha it was so funny. so then we kept fighting for a while, jake attempted to take a nap but coudlnt. then justin comes upstairs and starts squirting me with a water bottle and my shirt got soaked...soooooooo, i asked jake if i could wear one of his. he gave me his lucky lacrosse shirt!!!!!! yeaaaaaaaaaa cuz uh we were about to leave for there lacrosse game which started at like 9 or something, so everyone but his mom went to that, and i was looking sweet in jakes shirt. damn i looked sexy. i also had justins snow hat on cuz im usually the person who holds everything while there playing. we got there really early and we jsut sat around and watched the other games before theres. jake gave me his sweat pants so i put them on overtop of my jeans and ill looked sweet as shit. yeayea so jake did pretty good as usual, but it was a good game and they won WOO HOO!!!! work it out baby. jesus god, ive never realized how sweaty they get from just playing lacrosse, damn its crazy, jake had some gay lookin half shirt on under his jersey and it was totally soaked up...the hole entire thing, full of sweat, his hair was all sweaty his hole body was and he smelt like shit, i didnt even wanna sit next to him on the way home, but i did and to make it even better he just decides to lay down on my lap and get me dirty!! EWW its kay it was like his clothes anyway. so that was my interesting night. i come home in jakes clothes and my mom spaazed and shit and he made me a sweat hemp necklace too!
GOD I LOVE MY BABY!!!!!!!
when i got home around 11:30 i walked over to my neighbors house who live behind me cuz they were having a party for lil kids, and even tho all the kids were gone all the parents were outside drinking and stuff and my dad went over and i felt bad that i didnt show up cuz i told my friend who was helping out i would, so i walked over and made an appearance. around 12 i came back and jake was online and we talked for awhile and i didnt realy go to bed till around 1. i was tired. and it was freakin day lights saving today so that was sweet i got me and extra hour of sleep.so i got outta dance rite away got home around 12 and took a shower. called jake and he said he would call me back cuz i wanna do something with him today. i think he had ppl over or something but he said he would call back so ever since then ive been waiting. damn he better call soon cuz im so freakin bored im about to go call natalie or something crazy like that. oh yea on the way home last nite from the game, natalie just randomly calls me and is spazzin on the fone "COURTNEY IM AT HARFORD TECHS HOMECOMING RITE NOW" justin and jake both no natalie cuz shes stuck up my ass every second and shit so they started talking about how she braids her cooch hair and shit so it was great!! and yeah she defintly did "attempt" to braid it and when i told jake that the first time he almost puked....damn so funny..mmhmmmmmm
Posted at 02:54 pm by br0kenhanded
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Saturday, October 25, 2003
bitches ate my cheesecurls!!!!!!!!!
mood: pretty good
nothing exciting has happened in school this week. it was just really really boring and uh it went by major slow. yesterday, um i had this test in english on the odyessy and i think i failed it worse then i have ever failed a test before in my whole life.on thursday, i deciced to stay after school for our last home football game. i didnt even have a sweatshirt with me, i just had some sweater that has holes in it and it was FREEZING outside and i tell u no lie. omg it was so cold. well uh me and jake walked up to highs, bought some drinks and cheese curls for the game, went back and down over to the elemenatary school and sat at the parks and rec pinic tables and tryed to keep warm. then it was around 4 and the game was starting so we went inside the school for alil to get warm and then just me and him went out and watched the game. well no one really watches since it is jv so we decided we were only going to watch the first and second quaters cuz its so boring and cold. well all of a sudden we see marley and jaclyn skipping around like dorks, and me and jake both hate them more then anything and really arent friends with them even tho they think we are. so they walk by us, jake tells me n ot to make eye contact, but jaclyn waved so i didnt wanna b rude. well about 5 min later they come running us to up, sit rite down next tto me and start talking, and then just grabbing there hands into our cheese curls without even asking, and kept eating them. i was pissed, they were mine, u cant just come over and eat our damn cheesecurls WAT ARE U THINKING!!!!! go up to highs and get them urself u lazy fat bitch. well jake was pissed, he couldnt take it, so when jaclyn said something to jake he said "well your the one who comes over here and just starts eating all of our damn cheese curls" and he was serious too, he was mad. but jaclyn just looked at him and started laughing and then kept eathing them. now me and jake can kill a bag a cheese curls there so freakkin good, but by the time we left, they were gone and half were eating by them. god damn those gay fuckin dicks. so uh we were winning at half time 14- 0 woo hoo. work it out, so we go inside and find amandas and cole, and we just warm up alil bit. they wanted to walk up to highs so we decided to go with them. on the way there, jake and cole found all these middle schoolers skateboarding so they wanted to. jake wouldnt get off of the damn skateboard, and he doesnt even skate anymore, he says it was addciting and u cant get off. yeah mhmmm sureeeee. so i leave him and start walking up myself. about 10 min later he finally comes running up to get me, and we walk up to highs and buy nothing, then we go over to the middle school way and fight alil like usual, uh then we went back there, and snuck into the volley ball game with alll of our gay friends playing, and plus it was warm. around 6 we left and walked up to the middle school on our way to highs again, and we started gettin into lil fights up on the hill and it was fun. but uh when we got up to highs we called mommy to come pick us up and we got home late. well i stayed up that nite until 12 doing a gay project too which i failed but watever. yesterday, afterschool, my mom was inviting everyone over, gabi nick jon and them to come over and eat crabs and pick names for christmas. well i invited jake cuz everyone wants to meet him even tho i really didnt want him to meet my friends cuz i think nicks gay and hell make fun of him. but really it was fine! he acted cool around them and i think they liked jake which was a plus. yay! also me and jake played egypian ratscrew about 4 times that night and one took a hour, AND HE WON i was so pissed i beat him up i was furious. but uh later that nite i beat jo, twice i was so happy!!!! well it was really boring we didnt do anything, the crabs were good i had about 7 and then we just hung out in my room all nite while jake drew all over my magazines and stuff. wat fun. uhhhhh so thats about it that happend. jake went home around 1 yesterday and i was dead tired i went rite to sleep. WAT FUN!!!!!! ahhhhh...
my weekend mite b gay, i ahve dance im about to go to soon, and uh im not even ready, then i have my solo reherseal tomorrow which will suck and im not looking forwrad to AT ALL so watever im outta here gotta get me a shower before 10:30 haha
Posted at 10:09 am by br0kenhanded
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Sunday, October 19, 2003
mood: my back hurts like a bitch
whoaaaaaaa alot of shit has been going on and ive been busy as all hell ive barley been home...hmm lets seee wat has been going on....
on thursday, uh went to school and shit, then afterwards since we didnt have school on friday, me jake and lauren went over to justins house and hung out. me and jake i think have been alot closer since this little fight. ive been waiting him to relize how much i like him cuz i really do and ive has some of the best times with him this weekend. anyway, on thursday at justins, me and jake hung out on the couch all nite while we gave justin and lauren the floor...since were cooler and uh there not even going out and everything so sucks for u!! haha. we watched dirtydancing and some gay wrestling movie. me and jake didnt really watch it we just talked and hung out the hole time, same with lauren and justin. so it actually was a pretty cool nite. i had fun with jake he was being so awesome. he said he was sorry too which really ment alot since i was still getting over that he hated me and everything. so it was cool. i left there at 11 and then uh went home and talked to jake for awhile about who nos wat. then on friday, since we had off, i slept in. and guess how long i slept till...2 o clock!is that crazy or wat. i loved it tho, i needed the sleep i finally made up for my sleep schedule since its been fucked up since school started. anyway, i couldnt do anything during the day besides clean my room since jake was over justins and everything so watever. uhhh around, 4 or something jake came home, called and asked if i wanted to come over and just hang out so i said sure. when i got there, we looked thru some pictures, and uh then went downstairs onto the couch where we watched some movies. well jake has a lil sis jenna, shes in 6th grade and is 10 and everything and his mom asked my mom if we have any decent clothes that i dont want anymore if we could bring them over. since we have a shitload of clothes, and would rather give them to jenna then the goodwill we decided to bring it over. so i had to walk into his house with a huge ass garbage bag as big as me with tons of clothes. she picked thru wat she liked and kept half. me jake and jenna watched holes, which was a cute movie and i think the only reason i enjoyed it was because i read the book. thast really the only movie i can say that u have to read the book b4 u see it, since i dont read and uh yeah. then we were suppost to watch anger management but jakes ps2 is a piece of shit, so we watched the in laws insted. well not really i didnt really watch or anything we usually just hung out like usual. went home around 11 like usual and went to bed for my lovely day at dance the next day. well dance wasnt that bad today, we had karen for ballet which is cool and shelly for lyrical which rocked like usual. i was supppost to stay for pilates after lyrical for a hour from 2-3 BUT i wanted to go watch my baby play lacrosse. so i rushed home, thru on some deodorant and about 5 mins after i got home jake was pulling up the drive way at 2:30 to pick me up. we needed to leave early becuz we needed to pick up justin which is 20 min outta our way and it takes about 30 min to get there from justins house, and his game started at 4. it was indoor lacrosse game and i have never been to one b4. i actually dont no much about lacrosse except that all i no is jake is amazing. and he was. he was so good. i was watching jake the hole time, and either he is good and was showing off for me, or just got lucky since im there cuz he got about 7 or 8 goals i was amazed at how good he was.me and jenna watched the hole time and cheered everyone on like dorks, while i hear jakes dad in the background screaming "jake wake up, wat are u doin out there, comeon jake!!!!" it was so funny i couldnt stop laughing. he got off the field and he was soooo sweaty and smelt like shit. god ti was gross, rite when we got back to his house he took a shower while i helped jenna pull some wallpaper off her walls in her room since shes attempting to re do it. then we went and ate dinner, i ate one piece of chicken even tho i didnt like it very much, i ate a bunch of cornbread since it wasnt that bad and i ate alil applesauce, but thats it. jake woudlnt stop eating im serious he put about half the jar of applesauce on his plate and ate it in 5 min. it was gross. the hole time, jakes dad was saying to his mom, i cant believe ur forcing this child to eat meat when shes a vegitarian. i was crackin up shes like "ARE U REALLY?!?!" im like no i just dont like alot of food sorry but i still ate. haha then me and jake went downstairs and watched kingpin while jenna went over her friends house. after that, it was around 9:30 so we decided to eat some cookies and creme ice cream and get fat and play some pretty pretty princess since he thinks he can kill me in that game. comes to prove him wrong that I WON!!! cuz im the princess and shit, it was so funny. well he got pissed and bought a deck of cards down so he could beat me in egypian ratscrew since i suck at it. he won the first game and i was pissed, since it went by so fast i called a rematch. we were gettin so into it we were screaming at eachother for the cards i was gettin pissed too it was so funny i had so much fun playing that with him. in the end he won like usual and i was extremely mad but i got over it and we chilled until 11. it was fun i had like one of the best weekends with jake. we got so close and everything it was so much fun i loved everytrhing about there wasnt anything i didnt like about it it was so sweet baby woo hoo....
so as of today...hmmm, well....woke up, ready to go to my solo rehersal and kill myself. i pulled a muscle or something in my back from lyrical the day b4 and it hurt really bad this morning and i new i wasnt gonna b able to dance that well. so i let her no i wasnt doing to well with my back and it was killing. she said to do it as best as we can. so we cleaned the first half of the begining in the first 30 min until all of a sudden i got so dizzy and i couldnt see. it wasnt from turning or anything but i just got so dizzy i had to sit down, i told her i didnt feel good and felt dizzy and she let me go to the bathroom. on the way there, i was so lost, i coudlnt figure out how to get therer even tho i new where it was, i couldnt see i was so scared it was really weird, when i got in the bathroom i could barley stand up, it felt like i was gonna puke, i just sat on the floor and breathed trying to think wat was wrong with me and wat the hell m i suppost to do. i sat there for about 4 min until i got back up and tryed to walk back into the studio...shannon looked at me and said if i cant do anything i dont have to and she said that i didnt look too good, that i looked pale. i tryed to do something but i couldnt, i couldnt even mark it, my head was everywhere thinkin about evertything i couldnt even pay attention it was crazy. she told me we would just have to make it up after classes tomorrow and she said it was okay. i left around 11, and uh me and my mom decided to go to park city as planned, since i felt alil bit better after sitting down and drinking something for a while. we went shopping, not for me tho, well yeah for me but i only got one 12 buck shirt at hollister, but my mom bought me some shit for xmas. got home from the mall around 6 and im feelling pretty fine besides my back is killing. ughhhhh, now im off to do some damn homework and get fat in front of the tv...ROCK ON BABY!!!!!!
Posted at 08:57 pm by br0kenhanded
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Wednesday, October 15, 2003
mood: fine
god okay, well i think things are alil bit better between me and jake. today was pretty gay but jake was bein decent to me like he said he would b. he was acting normal and for once i wasnt. i just wasnt in the mood for his fakeness. i new he was just being nice to not piss me off anymore. but it wasnt like he forgot about the situation cuz he told a bunch of people which also grealy made me madd, not at the fact that ppl no but becuz he told ppl which means he still is worryed bout it. sooooo anyway i was jsut talking to jake and uh heres are cute and short convo we had, nothing bad either thank god...
jake: do u still wanna go out with me?
me: yeah wata bout u
jake: yeah, i dont like when ur upset....so do u still like me?
me: yeah
jake: are u sure? if i piss u off theres no sense in u likeing me just tell me what u want
me: no jake i do like u i love u alot
jake: ur not even talkin to me now its like u dont like me at all
me: i do tho, and doesnt it suck, i mean how im not talking to u and ignoring u and everything, cuz thats how uve been acting to me for a week, i didnt like that but im sorry ill b fine tomorrow, i just wanted u to see how it felt and yes i no it does suck, its not cool
jake: well im sorry, this has been all my fault, im selfish and now ur mad
me: no jake its okay i understand i think, and im not mad im fine dont worry about it
jake: no your not, i feel like shit, i made things werid now, im a dickhead, please b really happy for me tomorrow
me: okay i will, i have no reason not to b, things are cool now
jake: i have to go, i feel like a dick, i love u so much im sorry about everthing baby i really m i hate seeing u mad
me: its okay babe i love u 2 dont worry about it and dont b mad its alright i dont care anymore its fine
so yeah that was our non interesting convo, cuz uh we pretty much made up. well atleast he realized that he was being so gay and shit. that was good, i wonder who told him that, unless he figured it out byhimself. GOOD BOY! yay, hopefuly things will become back to normal soon. i really hope so i dont want anything bad to happen in the end of this. anyway, nothing much has been happening lately cuz ive been worrying about that stupid problem for ever. nowwww...i think im gonna b off, i need some homework to finish b4 i go torture myself at dance and shit and im not looking forward to it so yea wat fun. uh i dunno
Posted at 05:37 pm by br0kenhanded
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Tuesday, October 14, 2003
more pissed then ever...over a bj!?!?
mood: FURIOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
drama has been occuring with me all fucking nite. im pissed more then i have ever been pissed b4 in my hole damn life and its all jakes fault. it was so freakin bad we almost broke up, and anyway since this is my jounral i mite as well just go out and say wat the hell we were fighting about....well....
jake wants head, very badly i assume cuz hes been pissed about it for a week now. lately in school hes been ignoring me and always seemed pissed whenever hes with me. i really had no clue why but i figured it had something to do with THAT , since last week on the fone we got into the convo about it and i personaly really dont wanna do it cuz i think its gross and he wants me to so bad and when he found out that i dont wanna he got pissed. he wasnt being normal at all in school the next day and he was being so gay ever since then. the only day where he was mostly decent was homecoming. every other day he went back to his gay ass self being all pissed off at me. everytime i was with him he seemd like he was hating every second of it and wanted to get away from me. i thought he hates me. i finally couldnt take it anymore. i came home from school today and got online and i was like jake do u even still fucking like me and hes like yeah why m like cuz uve been being such a dick lately and i cant stand it anymore i hate it wat the hells going on...ill sum up parts of our terrible convo..
jake (reasonn why hes been pissed...)-i dunno the other nite when i asked you for a bj and you said no it pissed me off quite a bit.thats like the only thing ive ever asked of u and the fact u wouldnt do one damn thing for me really made me mad.thats not wat its all about though like then i just started thinkin back and like ive done everything uve ever asked me too and id do anything u asked me too and like i dunno uve just like never done wat ive asked u to. cuz i love you like so incredibly much and like when u just dont even do anything for me it makes me feel like u dont even care
me: dont assume i dont care about u i cant believe u think that, just becuz i dont wanna give u a bj doesnt mean that i dont care about u, wat the hell do u want me to do????
jake: it just pisses me off that i try to do watever u ask me and like the one thing i really sincerely wanted and like i dunno u wouldnt do it, i really do try for u i love you i dont no wat i want.
me: i no u do everything for me and then u want a bj and u no i really have never really planned on doin that just cuz i dont no, and it seems like u want one so much and i dont no wat to do jake its like u hate me
jake: courtney i like u its just its like uve just been puttin it off and like now thats like all i think about and its got me pretty upset im srry i dont want u to get upset, its okay im sorry, lets forget about it, ill b all better tomorrow.
me: how the hell can we forget about it when uve been acting like this alll week, its not like i cant tell thats why ur pissed off, and its only when ur around me. whenever your with other people ur perfectly fine i dont even no why i bother trying to b with u, u dont even care.
jake: yeah i no and i dont no wat to do about this either. also its like im trapped i cant fix the problem i care about u i could just as easy find somegirl to blow me but i love you thats not wat i want, i want to stay with u...
me: yea but the ONE thing u want is something i dont no if i wanna do, when have i asked u to do something for me u didnt wanna do, i never have, and lately ive been worrying if ur going out with me cuz u love me or u want to do shit...
jake: *PISSED* y the fuck would i date u for ten months for a bj i could have gotten one by now i really do like you i cant believe u think that ur mad no matter wat i say,
me: things seem prettyed screwed and to make things even better theres no way to fix this damn problem unless i freakin give u head, how the hell are things suppost to work out
jake: glad to see you fucking positive additude about it thanks, ur not even trying to help in anyway ur pissed no matter wat so just fuckin watever we could break up now for all i fuckin care do wat u fuckin want god damn,theres no way to fix it ur absolutley right, just do wat u want
me: cant cuz wat i want doesnt matter, remember i always get wat i want i never ever do anythign for u and now i have to cuz i really have no choice, you want me to b happy and i want u to b happy and the only way to make u happy is to give u a bj so i mite as well fucking do it just to make u happy. were gonna b broke up by the fucking time this is over i can see it coming, and im gonna b more pissed in my life then i ever will b becuz we would have broken up OVER A BJ....i like u wayyyyyyyyy to much for us to get this worked up over this, im still deciding if ill do one, it means so much to u so im deciding okay??? \
jake: i feel gay, i feel like shit, i dunno as much as i want head i feel gay puttin u in this situation,i dunno im srry, courtney i love you,i dont want to either its just i dunno this is really buggin me im tryin to drop it i really am but i dunno i cant stop thinkin about it, i dont no wat to do
me: yea okay tis alright
jake: just dont do it, cuz u dont want to and i guess wat i want dosnt matter so just forget it, i just dont feel like u being upset
me: and i just dont want u to b upset, theres no way to fix this i cant stand thsi anymore,
jake: fuck u maybe we should break up,im just the damn kid that wants head, dont give a shit about anything else,u no wat again im srry for wanting something im srry i really fucking am, u dont have to do a damn thing for me, i dont want anything, are u happy is that wat u want,
me: no i want u to b happy and we cant get wat we want can we no...so just stop being such a selfish dick about this gay ass situation i cant stand this anymore, were acting like shit to eachother and i wanna make u alil happy since i dont do a damn thing for u ever so i guess ill have to just get over it and do it
jake: i dont want a bj if its gonna make u feel like this, cuz now ur mad at me,
y would i want u to do sumthin if itts going to make u feel like this
me: becuz thats wat u want, i havent done shit for u, u do everything for me, i need to do something for u and my only choice is to do that so it looks like im doing it then
jake:courtney u no it would mean alot more to me to see u happy
and then i left. i told him i needed to rest and i coudlnt take our aguring anymore. and now im here at 8:30 and havent talked to him since uh 6 and ive been crying, and pissed off at myself and at him cuz i dont no wat the hell to do. i just really wish he would understand that i dont wanna do it, thats all, but he cant cuz he wants a bj so bad for somereason and says i dont do shit for him, so i dont no wat to do i really dont wanna but wat the hell esle m i suppost to do. FUCK IT IM OUTTA HERE... oh yippie and he just freakin imed me! wat fun
Posted at 08:48 pm by br0kenhanded
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Sunday, October 12, 2003
mood: SWEETTTTT
HOMECOMING KICKED ASS BABY!!!!!!
well it was pretty sweet these past few days well for the most part lets see hmm ill talk about friday, damn ive been so fucking busy!!!
well on friday i stayed afterschool for 5 hours with jake until the soccer game started at 7. it was only me and him there and a bunch of games were going on and everything but still we were bored outta our minds for 5 horus. so uh, we walked around tryed to go see our middle school teachers but they wouldnt let us in, walked down to heighs and bought some snacks. uh then while we were walkin back we decided to go over to the car show at the high school since were gay and have a car show. and looked at some of the cars for a while. we went over and i tryed to explain to jake how to play field hockey even tho i no as much as him..while we were watching the varsity field hockey game. after that got boring we went into the gym and just talked on the blechers while we watched gay volleyball. then we got bored again and went across the street to the elementary school and played on the playground like little kids. i felt like such a dork i havent been on a playground since 5th grade it was crazy. we just talked and swung on swings and stuff and got in fights and shit. oh jeez so here comes the drama shit. well we got bored of that after a hour and we had about a hour b4 the game started so we decided to go walk back up to heighs and get some snacks for the game. on out way up there insted of walking on the road, we walked thru the middle school baseball fields on a high hill that leads u to the back road to get there. we were just kidding around and fighting and shit. he started chucking acorns and berrys that stain, at me and shit and i was gettin pissed. so he found some tennis ball and we started fighting for it to hit eachother. we left it in the bushes for our way home. we bought some junk at heighs and on the way home i run to teh spot where the ball was to get it b4 him, but he got its first that bastard, then we went up to the hill to fight again and then it happend. he thru the ball and i started running after it and then hes running rite behind me and trips me sooooooooo freaking bad!!!!!! holy fuck i flew like 10 feet and did 43587365083 rolls and shit and i was just laying on the ground cussing him out. i couldnt stop laughing it was so funny, and i look over at jake and he just looks at me and falls on the ground cracking up for about a hour. it was soooo funny god i cant believe him, so he comes and gets me all cleaned up and after recooping from that crazy walk home we went over to the soccer game where we lost anyway. it was a long ass game and afterwards there were fireworks. i didnt have the best time at the game cuz jake was in his lil pissy mood thats nite. he would just sit there not look at me, not talk to me, not hold me, hed just put his hood up and lay on the ground staring...it was scary, i hate when hes like that. then he would just randomly walk away like he was pissed at the world and everything like he didnt fucking care about me i hate that. i asked if he was mad at me...even tho i didnt do shit and he said no he just said it was boring and he wanted to go home. so the fireworks started and we decided to walk over to the elemenrary school and talk so we could get outta there b4 all the traffic. so that was just fun. the next day jake was perfectly normal and i love when hes like that. ill just sum up wat we did in the day so i can tell ya about homecoming! well the football game was today, everyone was tehre we got there around 11 and left at 3:30, we lost that game too, damn we suck so freaking bad. oh well watever, so uh that sure was fun, then i went home, got home around 4 and told jake id call him when im finished gettin ready becuz it takes me forever. it took me about 2 hours to get ready and he was pissed. he called me and was like are u ready yet im like yeah come over, our parents wanted pictures and here ya go come take a look at us cuties!! and lookie at my sexy ass dress biotch!!!! MY BABY IS SUCH A FREAKIN CUTIE!!...he got me a pretty corsage or watever im the worst speller, and uh yea so its all gravy baby. now after the longgggggg time of gettin pictures taking jakes dad took us out to eat, where origionally we wanted to go to fridays but couldnt get in, we tryed fridays, sliver spring,we found unos. hmm wasnt crowded or anything, and the only reason that we couldnt get into any restrants was becuz, 1. this area with all the resturants is the only place in harford county so everyone and there brother goes there, 2. fallson also had homecoming tonite. 3. it was a fucking saturday at 6 pm, wat do u expect?! soooooo we went rite into unos it was around 6:20, and we both never ate there b4 so we didnt no wat to get. unfortinatly they didnt have good pizza so i got me some cheese sticks and jake got some chicken. all in a matter of 20 min we ate dinner that quick, and it only cost 20 bucks!!! thats amazing, it wasnt crowded, our food came out in like 5 min and we felt like dorks. well we didnt no why no body came here, we figured something was wrong with it since it wasnt crowded and there wasnt anyone esle in there for homecoming besides 1 other couple that were sitting with there parents and looked to b about juniors. god that was gay. so after that wonderful dinner, we went back to drop jakes sis and her friend off cuz they were being annoying and we had plently of time to kill since the dance didnt start till 8.we showed up at the dance around 8:15 and jake coudlnt get in cuz he ahd a bookbag with our change of clothes in it, so he found our friend jeff to go shove it in his car thank god. after we got in we found ppl, we danced for a while to the kick ass dj and it was sooo hott. my feet hurt like a bitch so off went the shoes, and we needed something to drink. we kinda got lost and went to the vending machines even tho u werent supost to but wtf who cares. we sat there and talked for a while until we almost got caught, then we went back and just hung out at the adnce all nite sweating and shit. it was actually pretty cool, me and jake grinding on the dance floor rock on baby, yeaaaaaa. sexyyyy turning me on owowwwwwww.hhahaha yeah so that was it, it took forever to get outta there and i no jake was gettin pissed. he wanted to get back and chill with me so bad. god i love him. he couldnt get over how good i looked he said he loved me about every second and he finally realized how fucking short i was when i took off my heels hahhaa. FUNNY. luke took us home, soffy. hes so nice he had me amanda cole jake him and marlea over to hang out. i no jake wanted to do shit but there really wasnt a place to go so we took the end of the couch with about 3 blankets and...uh...yeah figure that out lol. DIRTY!!!! around 1:30 my dad came and picked me jake and amanda up and we were so tired, i fell alseep in the car along wiht everyone esle. we were wiped. that was my wonderful homecoming experience, aint it amazing. but it was a hell of a good time i tohught and hopefully jake will wanna go to the snowflake dance this year. yay wat fun...
as of today, i went to dance at 10 even tho i didnt start till 11 cuz my moms a bitch, allie got IT finally, amazing yet wonderful news that ive been waiting to hear for about 10 years, and i finished my solo thank god. its so deadly but i love it. i wanna do something with jake but i keep calling and no one is picking up, so i think soon im gonna go take a nap if he dont call me back anytime soon. i have a ton of homework but watever fuck it im tired. so yeah wat a nite huh and a kick ass dance once again for lovely me...
I FUCKING LOVE JAKE SOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH BIOTCH!!!!!!!!!!
Posted at 03:29 pm by br0kenhanded
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Thursday, October 09, 2003
whoa homecomings....coming hell ya
my hair is definatly highlighted biotch!!!!
woo hoo, very excited about that. see, i wanted my hair highlighted for a while now since i havent had it done for 8 months or something crazy like that, so like my top is all grown out and there was still some in the bottom so my mom said i could ethier get highlights or get my hair done for homecoming and i chose highlights since it will last longer then 1 updo for a gay dance. anyway i m good with hair i can do something with my curls. so after schoool i went up to the salon place down the street and got me some cutie highlights woo hoo work it out courtney soooo sexy. that just made my day. besides that, uh i went to rite aid, bought some hot pink nailpolish for the dance, and attempted to do me some fake nails since we have no money and my mom wont take me to get them done. no not press on, the real shit the chinese people use. ive gotten my nails done so many times i no how to do it. so i did it and it looked pretty good, even tho the shit i bought was extremely cheapy...it was falling off but looked pretty good so i just said screw it and threw them out. oh well ill just paint um or something. yeah um all nite ive been doin homework. and today in school was really ...gay. i think after homecoming we decided were going to lukes house, even tho i barley no luke and jake is friends with him, so i guess were going there. wat fun, a bunch of kids i dont no yay! um yeah thats dorky, and uh thats about it that happened to me so far that has been interesting. tomorrow is pep rally and school spirit day. hopefully it will b cool. i stil have a ton of homework to do btu screw that im lazy. oh and tomorrow nite is the soccer game and the fireworks yay!!!! i think i talked jake into going cuz i didnt think he wanted to but screw him too bad thats wat he gets. yesterday i had to stay after school by myself to take a spanish test i missed on friday. it wasnt too easy, well some of it was, i guess it wasnt to me since i didnt study and i suck at spanish. oh well watever, screw that my grades are going down and i dont give a shit anymore. oh and wat sucked about yesterday lets see...well uh when ur absent u getta lil yellow slip of paper u get all of ur teachers to sign saying wat code ur absents was. so i go give it to kapinos my gym teacher for him to sign. he says "okay courtney" puts the paper in his book, and walks away to get shit for todays lesson in gym. im like standing there waiting for my paper back but he just never gave it back. by the end of the period i think he and i both totally forgot about it and i went to my next class. i didnt realize i didnt have it until i was about to show my next teacher so she was spazing and i had to go on a hunt for kapinos. i looked EVERYWHERE. for about 15 mins, outside, in the old gym, in the office, he was no where to b found and i was pissed. i needed that paper. so my math teacher saids, well since u dont have ur paper, ur going to have to take the chapter test today, that i really wasnt ready for. and uh i was major pissed. if i woulda had that damn paper i coulda waited till, friday to take it. god damn gym teachers so gay. its okay i think i failed that. and uh, i had a test in science today that was the easiest thing in the world i totally think i aced it work it out courtney. THIS WEEKEND IS GONNA KICK SOME ASS yessssssss!!
Posted at 09:03 pm by br0kenhanded
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Tuesday, October 07, 2003
support the duck farmers!!!!
mood: hungry
yeah ur probaly wondering...courtney, why the hell didnt u update yesterday when u had off school and nothing to do all damn day!??!?! and my answer to that is fuck u. hahaha fun..lets see wat the hell did i do yesterday? oh yeah thats right, basically nothing. heres wat kinda went on. nothing exciting just to tell ya. well on sunday nite when i got home from my aunts around...7, i called jake to see if he wanted to come over just to hang out. i mean i would have thought he would have wanted to at least just to b with me and hang out but he declined cuz he said he "didnt have a ride" my dad tells me that were not going to pick him up, and after i told him we couldnt give him a ride, my mom said she would so i was like pissed all nite and jake never came over even tho it seemed like he didnt wanna anyway and stuff. soooo i was bored. and i was gonna wake up alil earlier on monday just becuz i thought jake would wanna try to do something like he said. so i get up at 10, he calls at 10:30 and we try to figure out something to do which we cant cuz he always makes me make these gay decisions soooo he got pissed and hung up. that lil dick. that pissed me off, so he got online a few min later and said just forget about it it was okay and he was sorry for gettin mad cuz hes sooo sweeet like that and then we started talking about homecoming. oh jeez here we go gay homecoming. well he wanted to no wat we were doing b4 and after homecoming. we decided that b4 homecoming we would go out to eat at fridays. and i really didnt wanna go by myself so mayb i can talk him into taking justin and lauren along too. so thats set so far, and after wards we still dont no cuz...theres usually a bunch of parties to go to but we cant seem to find any that our friends are going to b at soo thats not going to b much fun. if we cant find a party then i think we are going to go crash at his house, i mite spend the nite if it gets too late and just hang out all nite which sounds pretty kick ass if u ask me. but watever happens happens and im just excited for gay homecoming. yea so i found out today exactly wats going on. on friday theres the soccer game with all my guy friends in it and fireworks. so im guessing well go to that cuz i usually do each year. and it kicks ass most the time. on saturday the football game starts at 12, we are playing c milton wright and my friend emily cheers for them. so my parents wanted to go watch the game. if they do and i have nothing esle to do then ill probaly go up and watch it and hang out and go see her and introduce her to jake since shes been dieing to meet him for like 10 million years. then later that nites the dance and everything and thats about it. wat fun. umm hopefully it will b cool tho im kinda looking forward to it. yay. so0o0o0..lets see last nite was gay, my studs FINALLY came in for my dress tho i was so excited. from 3 until 6 i was studing my dress. i got hot pink studs to go all over the flowers black studs that were suppost to go on my shoes but i didnt order enough and white ones for watever. my dress looks 10 times better, its soooo sparkley and shit i love it woo hoo. soooo sexy work it out courtney!!!!! cant wait to get all the pictures from homecoming developed and hopefully if we ever get this damn scanner fixed ill try to scan some and post um. yippie. okay dance was killing like usual i hate it it needs to die i wanna kill myself from the torrture i have to go thru while at dance but watever ill live i just need to forget about it and stop complaing all the time.sooooo as of today lets see..today at school was..PJ DAY! whoppie. not exciting at all. since its the week oh homecoming we have gay spirit week. today was pj day, tomorrows tacky day, thursday duck farmer day (ill explain later) and friday is spirit day. now i dressed in my kick ass hello kitty pjs today just to b confy. no other reason, im not supporting schoool spirit and im not going to participate in any oh the other days. but when they give u a free day to bust into school in pjs and b confy and relaxed all day im not letting that go to waste. so i busted into school with practically everyone esle and wore my kick ass pjs. jake made funna me but i dont care i was confy. yeah...so since i was absent from school on friday i have a bunch of shit to make up. tomorrow i have to stay after school for a spanish test that looks deadly. a math test tomorrow. a bunch of papers to make up and all this other shit. just perfect. i have enough homework tonite as it is i dont need anymore. its gonna take mea while to get everything done, i have so much shti to do its not even funny. and like 1004280347243567 tests this week too. god thats gay watever im leaving to go get this shit done. i think later tonite im going out to buy last min stuff for homecoming. since IM GETTING MY HAIR HIGHTLIGHTED ON THURSDAY, i cant get my nails done. but at least my hairs gonna look sweet for homecoming work it out!! wooo hoo.
Posted at 03:38 pm by br0kenhanded
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Sunday, October 05, 2003
this is so much DAMN fun..mmhmm
mood: not too happy
. i wont get home till probaly 7 and i really wanna do something with jake tonite. the only thing we can do is probaly come over my house which will b extremely gay like it usually is. but watever. i dont no if we can even do anything, ive been trying to get ahold of him all day. i really dont wanna call cuz if hes not online then hes probaly busy or out or doing something more important then worrying about wat we wanna do. then hell get pissed at me since we cant do anything and its not me fauly its his so watever i tryed. its hard staying online waiting for him to get on when over here they only have 1 phone line and ppl are calling this house non stop. i dunno i just wanna leave this weekend has sucked while my parents enjoyed themselves and i just hated it...NO FUN atleast next weekend is homecoming and i can have fun and spend all weekend with jake...hopefully! yay. i have a bunch of homework to do still but i didnt bring it with me which sucks. oh well we have off tomorrow thank god of yon kippor or some weird holiday so its all gravy baby! and mayb my studs for my dress came in and i can start studing it that would rock too. i just wannna go home. please save me from the maddness. ahhhhhhhh
Posted at 04:42 pm by br0kenhanded
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Saturday, October 04, 2003
god damn this is gay as all hell
mood: bored
well on thursday me and jake stayed after school to go to a football game. jv, which sucked cuz we lost and shit but who cares at least i got to b with jake. well school ends at 2:15, the game didnt start till 3:30 so we just stayed after school, we went over to the middle school and talked to some teachers and harassed them and shit it was fun. then we walked up to highs and bought a bunch of shit till we got kicked out..that bastard lady! errr bitch. uh it was sooooo freezing outside too so, when we went back to the high school the game had already started and me and jaked watched the hole thing. since he was "suppost" to play football this year and everything, well his parents wanted him to but he didnt really wanna cuz he hates football but watever. so we stay on the freezing ground and watched the guy run after a ball in tight pants and gettin hurt.no fun, we just talked thehole time. then we uh finaly called our parents to come pick us up like 10 hours later. that sure was a hell of a time. then i went to dance for nothing, tryed on my kick ass solo costume and went to walmart. didnt get to bed till 12 but i didnt have school the next day since i was going to try out for STARSEARCH. like i said b4. okay well we got at the studio on friday morning around 9 and we practiced for a while. we did are hair before we left and then took our 1 ina half drive to dc. we did all of are dances and i think they liked them alot, espeically allie and nicks partnering duet. but its okay id rather see them on star search then me. it was cool but i was pissed that i had to miss school.errr. so uh that was that. last nite after i got home i went over jakes house and watched him try to chug a gallon of milk in a hour. his bro told him the other day that its impossible to drink a gallon of milk in 1 hour and jake took the dare. so he did it while i was over, drank about half a gallon in 30 min, felt soooooo sick like he was gonna puke everywhere and gave up. that pussy. he didnt feel good and id idnt feel bad for him cuz that was his fault. he went upstairs, puked about 5 times till he finally felt better. ha it was funny. and extremely dirty i was pissed that he puked yucky. uh that was fun, then we just hung out the rest of the nite. today i had to go to dance, my parents and mr ray and ms elizabeth arre rite now in atlantic city gamblin. they leave me here over my gay aunts house and its been sooo gay. after dance she picked me up, we went to 2 librarys to find a book for my cousin. went to wendys for a hour. went to super walmart and just got back.jesus long day. and my lil cuz hunter is being soooo annoying. my cousin bob whos cool and my age is over his gfs house all fucking dayl leaving me al alone. errr torrture. now later i think im gonna have to watch gay kangaroo jack with him cuz he rentedit while he was at the library, i mean hey its better then gay dragonballz. ugh. okay thats enough. from re-reading wat just happened today i think i mite go shoot myself.
Posted at 08:25 pm by br0kenhanded
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